161.8, 8/16/11

 Trying something new….myfitnesspal. I love that it can scan barcodes which is really helpful because I’d like to keep track of more than calories whenever possible. 

Trying something new….myfitnesspal. I love that it can scan barcodes which is really helpful because I’d like to keep track of more than calories whenever possible. 

163.6 this AM.

I’ve been going to the gym and using my heart rate monitor to keep myself in my target zone.  I’ve eaten better the past few days so hopefully the downward trend will continue.  I had bounced up again.  *sigh*

I am determined to stick to 1200 calories today.

But I might pass out. Ok, not really but damn if I’m not starving! 

Also, I really wish there was a better way than trial and error to figure out how many calories in a day it takes to maintain when you finally reach your goal weight.

H-U-N-G-R-Y!

162.6 this am. Relieved to see it lower.

165.8 and I deserve every ounce.

I have not eaten well.  I’ve been lazy and unmotivated.  BUT I think I know my problem. I’ve been here before.

Seems I can get close to the 150’s but then lose it and go back up.  This time I’ve realized something….besides the fact that it’s hard to get any lower for me (for some reason), I don’t feel like I “look” any different when I got down to 159 than I do at almost 166.  It’s kind of a momentum killer for me.  I know I’m doing better but I feel I should see 7 pounds difference and I didn’t.  Therefore I think mentally I’m screwing myself.  

I need to stop and get my shit together because I also know this isn’t a good excuse for anything.  Today it’s back to the gym for me.

Part of me also wants to just stop eating altogether, just for a second.  However I’m not insane and I don’t have an eating disorder so I’d never stick to that plan either.  This morning I ate a measured cup of Cheerios, a cup of vanilla almond milk and a cut up banana, so about 300 calories.  I need to get back to counting calories.  It really is extremely important to know how much you take in every day.  It’s more than half the battle.

I do wish I had a trainer, at least for a little while.  Someone to show me a routine that I’m comfortable with, that I can do on my own with proper form that works for me.  I would like to use the machines more often at the gym but I have no idea if I’m using them right, how many reps are appropriate and on and on.  In short, I feel like an idiot.

So today I’m going back to do the elliptical and maybe some other things.  It’s a start.

163.8 this AM.

Maybe things are returning back to normal.  I also need to get back to the gym.

165.4, 6.4 lbs damage from vacation and the few pounds I was up before I left. Time to get back at it. Seriously.

You’ll only regret the workouts you skip, not the ones you have to fight through.

This will be me when I get home.  This vacation has killed me.  Being a vegetarian in Orlando, stuck in the parks, has only left me with pizza, pasta, and nasty “veggie” wraps where the actual veggies are always mysteriously missing and the wrap has been sitting in the water they didn’t wash off the 90% lettuce filling.

I don’t even want to talk about the sodium.  I just don’t.

(Source: losinginadaydream)

 Scale said 162 this AM.  Not even funny.  I’ve wanted to eat every damn thing over the past few days.  Today it’s back to work keeping track of what I’m eating.  That’s the only way I’ve made any real progress.

Scale said 162 this AM.  Not even funny.  I’ve wanted to eat every damn thing over the past few days.  Today it’s back to work keeping track of what I’m eating.  That’s the only way I’ve made any real progress.